Life is Hard


I’ve always been a happy person. I always have a smile on my face. A couple months ago I was asked, “What is one word that describes you best?” Without hesitation I said “happy”. Because it was true.

Well, It’s not true right now. I’m sad. I’m mad. I’m depressed. Today as I reflect on my life I feel like a complete failure for many reasons. My school life has fallen apart. My work life is nonexistent. My friend life has become minimal. And my family life… that is what has thrown me to the deepest slums.

Everybody makes mistakes. I’ve said things that have hurt others and others have said things that have hurt me. But WHY do we have to hold grudges and hate people so much? Aren’t we in this world to help each other? Wouldn’t life be so much more enjoyable if we chose to forgive others and love them instead?

I feel like my life has completely fallen apart. I know others have it much worse than me but I just wish I could escape. I know one day the hard times will come to an end. There will come a time when I can stop faking my “I’m doing good” answer when people ask me how I am. There will come a time that it will actually be true.

I’m ready to move away and leave all my problems in this small little town. But I know that’s not the answer.

The answer is forgiveness.

I have to forgive myself for not living up to my expectations. I have to forgive friends for not hanging out with me all the time. I have to forgive my family for showing me that not everyone is perfect.

Life is hard. And I don’t see that changing anytime soon. So I guess our only choice is to forgive and to love. So here it goes.  

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